Piano Tales...

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Today parang nag sink in sakin kung gano ka ok ang relationship naming. Hindi lang ok pero GOOD!
For the first time in very long time hindi kami nag-aaway! Masyado na kaming nagkakaintindihan ngayon! I don’t know what suddenly changed, but I like it! Syempre meron parin kaming misunderstanding minsan minsan, pero hindi na katulad ng dati na tumatango sa sobrang pag aaway na mapapa-iyak ako at parang feeling eh mag eend na ang relationship. Ngayon ibang-iba na talaga, feeling ko eh may malaking nagbago, hindi ko lang alam talaga kung ano yun.
Now hindi narin ako masyado nagseselos, hidni na ako natatakot at nag iisip ng kung ano-ano. Wala akong duda, I trust him now completely for the first time! Now I can say it without having any doubt. I trust him!

Siguro dumating na relationship naming sa next level, parang kung baga sa school eh from elementary to high school. Ganito siguro feeling ng sinasabi nilang: grow within the relationship.
Madami ako natutunan dahil sa trials napagdaanan naming, siguro yun ang nagdala samin sa level na to. Parang exam sa school diba? Mageexam ka para makarating sa masmataas na level. Thanks kay God, dahil sa help niya eh nakaya naming yun, alam ko din na marami pang darating, that I shouldn’t feel so sure. Dahil ok na kami eh easy-easy nalang ako? No hindi ganun, I know and I am prepared for the other trials. The past trials have made me stronger =)

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Natutuwa dina ko kasi he really believes in me. Lalo na pag sa studies, in my future too, he really think I can be something big! He gives me strength, it is good kasi mas na iinspire ako mag aral mabuti =)

He said he is proud of me now. But I will make him more proud! =)I love him so much!

--Flies away...--
9:24 PM

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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Welcoming myself back!

Here I am again, and with a new layout indeed! I haven't been visiting this blog for a long long time eh? 3 months.. but now I am back! Well in the weekend I learned myself to make a background, and then I suddenly got the idea to make a blog about me and Tristan ! =)

I know the layout doenst look that good, well as an excuse thats my very first made skin so well for me its alright! hehe :p

BAck to what this blog is really about.
Instead of writing a diary where I write about me and my bf well I'll just post it here! Hehe,, who knows maybe it will get famous one day? haha yeah right! Here I will state what I feel, basta everything!! =) Oh I can't write right now, I dont know what to write really, but well To make it clear again, this is a LOVE BLOG, if you can call it that ! :P

This is kinda my new years resolution ! I might aswell start now! Hehe :P

LAtest updates about my relationship: 17 months na kami, since december 2 =) yehey! hehe

Until next time

--Flies away...--
7:50 PM

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Sunday, September 03, 2006

14 months

Long distance relationship can work out well! I am just proud, coz now we've been together for 14 months, its quite amazing for me because this is my first relationship and to think that it is a Long distance relationship makes me more proud..

I'm loving being with the person who I am with right now. He's the only one I want and the only one I need.. I pray to God that it will be us two forver. but if not, I just hope that God has good plans for him, he really is terrific he's learning me alot. thats why I call him my angel, he is learning me the things I really need to know, protecting me to that bad stuff that can happen and shows me the right path to follow. He is sent by God.

I am very thankfull =)

Very very Thankfull...

--Flies away...--
9:30 PM

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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

>The one..

WHen I sit back and think about things around me, especially about my relationship, which this blog has been all about hehe.. well when I do that, I think that, maybe I easily get sad sometimes. Or maybe like, most of the time. You see sometimes, I get sad even the smallest things, and before I used to tell him that right away, and it starts a fight in our relationship, but I think its going better now, cause now, eventhough I get sad, I try to tell myself not to be, I try to control me, but there are times when I really just cant, and so the arguments between us begins..
Well ok I know, its good that I can see that theres a changes, but its still not enough! I know its not enough coz I can feel that he doesnt really feel something has changed, that I have tried to control myself even just a little..But I know, I know it will come,, I have to be patient, and be thankfull that its geting there =) that somehow, I'm kinda changing now..

Just a while ago we were discussing about my school, theres this concept that you can go to Austalia for three months to study, I wanted to go there, but the problem was it was too expencive, so if I wanted to go there I have to foget about going to the philippines on my next summer break. But I wouldnt do that! I wanna see him, so I just said, I will just forget the Australia trip, its not THAT important anyway! But you know I told him that and he kinda get mad, because he wanted me to go there,because he wanted me to get a good experience,, he said he could wait even we wont see each other next year just so I get a good education, I find that really sweet...
But explained him things, that I could get a good education and still get to see him.
Then he said, he wish he had enough money, so he could pay for my Australia trip, oh I find it really sweet, knowing that he would spend alot of money just for me..

I feel stupid sometimes, just like today, earlier I thought,, oh he doesnt really care for me cause when we talk its none like we talk before,, but just this evening I felt that he cared for me again because of the things he said, oooh really really stupid!
It happens all the time, and seriously, I need to change that attitude!

--Flies away...--
9:38 PM

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

I haven't been posting here for a month eh?

So whats up with me?
My school started again, just last week, and I think its going to be fun! I study at Copenhagen Business College, people are friendly =) what else? there are lods of cuties! hehe! oh well bad bad me!

about my relationship, well I think we are doing fine, pero.... haaay! Theres something I dont like about him,, He really is a good person eh, good advicer,, good friend, good in everything, but there is one thing I dont like about him, and everytime I think about it it makes me sad, it hurts, I wish,, I wish he could change for me,, but,, haay I dont know =(

I wanna break up with him, but,, hindi ko kaya na mawala siya sakin. Ksi nasanay na ako na nandyan siya, hindi ko kaya, pero nasasaktan din ako na, na ganun siya. When I tell him I am sad about it parang magagalit siya sakin, coz he thinks I dont trust him, kasi sinasabi niya nga na hindi siya ganun, but how should I know right? he lives so far away,

It really hurts,,

I dont know what else to do,, siguro,,, mayb wag ko nalang pansinin,, wag ko nalang isipin,,

Maybe I also should try to... to you know,, sanayin ang sarili ko na wala siya dahan dahan...

--Flies away...--
8:24 PM

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Long time no blog..

Hello my dear blog, finally I've posted again, kinda long time ago since my last post huh? I was just kinda busy these past few days, I have vacation now, but I'm working.

Anything new?

Nothing much really happened.

But well yes of course I should't forget.

July 2 2006 me and and Angel celebrated our anniversary!

Its really amazing knowing we've been together for a year, blis talaga ng time!!

I'm just happy we have reached this level!

I've waited all my life

To cross this line

To the only thing that's true

So I will not hide

It's time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited

This is true

Ang saya, I know that song is old, yeps actually one year old , am I right?

I just remember the first time I've heared this song was last year when I was in the philippines. Tapos few days ago I heared it again, and it kinda made me remember the time I was there,, the time me and my Angel met for the first time,, all the time we spent together.

Thats whats good with songs,, when you hear them they can make you remember all those lovely times,, all the memories. But of course its always not the lovely times, but right now for me, everytime I listen to some songs that I have heared while I was with him, it makes me remember the lovely time we had when we were together.

I so miss him so much,, but I just have to be happy that even though we are miles apart, he still is in my heart and I am in his,,

I Love You My TRISTAN!

----- you will always be in my heart.

--Flies away...--
6:17 PM

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

today is june 21 2006

LAst year at this same date,, it was tuesday, It was raining that day, maybe it started raining in the afternoon, but the heavy rain stopped after some couple of hours.

I was sitting inside Hot shots( i think thats the name of the place we ate) well we ordered some burger, but I couldnt really eat,, I was finish drinking my ice tea, but couldnt eat my food.
The people from the other table left the resto, so it was only me, my cousin and the waiter left. I think I couldnt wait....
I was looking outside,, waiting for someone to enter the door..

suddenly it opened op, then a guy,, wearin a cap, white t-shirt and jeans entered the door with a smile on his face. there was he,,, Tristan,
he tooked a chair and sat beside me. He was smiling to me all the time,, oh and the way his eyes looked at mine,, It was,,, soo nice. Then he was looking at me as inthe whole body, and then he said,, you're not fat naman pala eh,, haha! natawa lang ako :p I COULDNT SPEAK! I didnt know what was wrong with me, I was ver shy,,,
he asked me alot of things I just replyed, I wonder if he didnt got bored with me,, I wasnt really good having conversation with that day,, haha

well the resto was closing na, so we moved to the other one,, and guess wat? the table was big enough so he could sit in the other side but he chose to sit right beside me, it was really nice,, but I coundt really move because there was a very little space,, but to be honest kinilig naman ako! haha.
Then yun uli parang feeling ko ako lang yung tao dun,, kasi sakin sya lagi nakatingin ako lagi kinakausap nya! The way he looked at me,, oooh the sparks in his eyes? call me crazy but it was,, really amazing!I mean I havent seen a guy look at me that way, and when he asked something about me he listened,like he was really interested.. He was really paying attention. Kasi diba meron nagtatanong lang para meron mapag usapan, but him, he really cared about what I said,, tapos meron sya tinanong I ws trying to explain but hindi ko kaya, sabi ko wag nalang hindi mo maiintindihan sabi ba naman niya: No,, no.. I really wanna know; I will listen just continue.... hehe diba ang sweet? =)
Tapos when our food came,, sinubuaan niya pa ako,, hehe!
Oh tapos tha most amzing thing... HE SANG for me!! waaa as in dami tao dun but he sang! hehe kilig na kilig ako nun, well I dont know if the song was for me,, sad to say I cant remember the song eh, but all I remember is, it was about a boy meeting this girl,,, naaalala kolang yun kasi while he was singin pinakikingan ko yung lyrics, then I told my self jasmin thats something you shouldnt forget!! hehehe,
Basta he wasnt that good looking naman pa noon,, but he really got this impat on me no one other had before,, I mean, marami ako naging crush na gwapo talaga as in, but pag iccompare ko yung nafeel ko nung kasama ko si Tristan and kasama ko yung mga naging crush ko,, well ibang iba! He made me feel special,, it really felt like I was the only one there,,, The way he looked at me,, I will never forget that....

That day was trully amazing day! The feelings I had that day lasted long, as in naffeel ko pa yung kilig ilang araw na,, parang naffeel ko pa yung pag hawak niya sa kamay ko,, ya hinawakan nya kamay ko! hehehe! but only to read em!! you know,, haha! tapos yung pag bulong niya sa ears ko,,
ooh basta ang hindi ko makakalimutan sa lahat,, at ang hindi ko pa nakakalimutan is the way he looked at me.
I was wondering,, could it be love at first sight? could I have fallen for him that very first day, kasi since nung day na yununtil now wala pang day na naaalis ko siya sa isip ko, wala pang oras wala pang minuite, wala pang second,,
but no,, I don believe in love at first sight.

Well it was the day when I met the man I was going to love,,,
And hopefully for the rest of my life na,, basta I'll pray to God!
Haay one year ago,, at that moment I never thought that it will come this far, na after one year eh iisipin ko yung day na yun... hehe,, I'm happy though,,
That rainy day gave me blessing..

--Flies away...--
10:43 PM